I really never had that deeply in-bedded desire to be a mother. I'm not sure why, but, that whole "nurturing" thing...the whole "self-less" thing...it just did not sound appealing to me for a VERY LONG TIME. Truthfully, it didn't sound appealing to me, until I had Mr. Aiden almost 6 years ago. Now, it is my second nature...giving to my children and putting them first is just what I do, and I do it without a second thought.
It's a hard time right now, dealing with the loss of my Mother is just flat out hard. There are ok days, then there are really hard days...there are days that I stop to think about it and I just break. In all of it, however, my children...and their happy little faces give me so much strength. Aiden is always saying or doing something off the wall- and funny...Miss. Natalie is always learning something new and making me smile....God knew I needed these little babies, even when I didn't. God has this whole life orchestrated for us, he knows what we need and what we do not.
It's my job now to keep going for myself, and for my children. My two little happy kids need a healthy, and happy Mom. It's ok for me to be sad, and it's ok that they see me sad...but, they also need to see a Mom capable of moving forward in the midst of heartache and pain...and, so, that's exactly what I will do. I will keep taking care of these little gifts from God...
It's a hard time right now, dealing with the loss of my Mother is just flat out hard. There are ok days, then there are really hard days...there are days that I stop to think about it and I just break. In all of it, however, my children...and their happy little faces give me so much strength. Aiden is always saying or doing something off the wall- and funny...Miss. Natalie is always learning something new and making me smile....God knew I needed these little babies, even when I didn't. God has this whole life orchestrated for us, he knows what we need and what we do not.
It's my job now to keep going for myself, and for my children. My two little happy kids need a healthy, and happy Mom. It's ok for me to be sad, and it's ok that they see me sad...but, they also need to see a Mom capable of moving forward in the midst of heartache and pain...and, so, that's exactly what I will do. I will keep taking care of these little gifts from God...