Hey, Mama. I am convinced you can see this...hear my thoughts...maybe God allows for that when I am "okay." I have no idea...but I can say this aloud today...and for me, today, THAT is a big deal. It is well with my soul Mom. Ah...I haven't been able to honestly say that in so long.
You left this world today, and somewhere in it all you entered into Paradise, oh, you left me so broken...and with this heartache that sometimes dulls itself...but, gosh the sting still burns mostly.
Mom...I wasn't ready for this...I wasn't prepared...and today was the last day I heard your voice...one year ago today...you told me you were "proud" of me. Can you see me now?
Mom...it is well with my soul. Though you left this world...and I still need you...we still need you...I'm okay...we are all okay. There is an empty void in our hearts that will forever exist...but it still well with my soul. In all of this brokenness....I am finally okay....or, as okay as I will be.
The sun is shining...my children are happy...and healthy...my marriage is such a blessing...and the flowers are just beautiful. Mom, I know you are tucked away safe...gardening...and among the presence of Jesus, which given the chance you wouldn't exchange for this world.
I'm eager to see you when it is my time, but, right now...this world...this family...these children...they need me, and they need my soul to be well. I truly believe the Devil preys on the broken...and, although I am broken, I am making the choice to stand in the radiant light of Jesus...and make it all well within my soul.
I love you Mom...you know that...I hope you can see us sometimes...our happy moments...proud moments...and the moments we think of you and smile...I hope you can peer down from the Heavens and see our faces and know that we are finally okay. Jesus comforts us...and all is well with my soul.
I have your strength Mom. I do. You were the strongest woman I know....and I'm proud to say, deep within me, I am strong.
You left this world today, and somewhere in it all you entered into Paradise, oh, you left me so broken...and with this heartache that sometimes dulls itself...but, gosh the sting still burns mostly.
Mom...I wasn't ready for this...I wasn't prepared...and today was the last day I heard your voice...one year ago today...you told me you were "proud" of me. Can you see me now?
Mom...it is well with my soul. Though you left this world...and I still need you...we still need you...I'm okay...we are all okay. There is an empty void in our hearts that will forever exist...but it still well with my soul. In all of this brokenness....I am finally okay....or, as okay as I will be.
The sun is shining...my children are happy...and healthy...my marriage is such a blessing...and the flowers are just beautiful. Mom, I know you are tucked away safe...gardening...and among the presence of Jesus, which given the chance you wouldn't exchange for this world.
I'm eager to see you when it is my time, but, right now...this world...this family...these children...they need me, and they need my soul to be well. I truly believe the Devil preys on the broken...and, although I am broken, I am making the choice to stand in the radiant light of Jesus...and make it all well within my soul.
I love you Mom...you know that...I hope you can see us sometimes...our happy moments...proud moments...and the moments we think of you and smile...I hope you can peer down from the Heavens and see our faces and know that we are finally okay. Jesus comforts us...and all is well with my soul.
I have your strength Mom. I do. You were the strongest woman I know....and I'm proud to say, deep within me, I am strong.