Good morning my dear readers. It's been so very long...I must confess to you that this family of mine is going through growing pains...or something of the sort...time has become so limited for all of us it seems, and my writing well...what writing?! But thankfully, at least for a few moments I find myself in my writing chair...with a myriad of things to say and I should add...they will come in no particular order...
It is no secret that I count calories...I can recall being very young counting calories...exercising...and wanting to never "get fat." And, to this day...oh, yes, I still struggle with that battle of the scales...while the struggle has improved eating anything off the charts still can leave me with a slight burden of guilt...and this week...I ATE A LEMON MUFFIN FOR BREAKFAST EACH DAY. I did...sugar coated...moist...and lemony sweet...along with my coffee I savored each bite...but, most importantly I want to tell you what I did alongside that. I sat myself on the sofa next to my baby girl and shared that delicious pastry...watching cartoons with her...we sat, and we enjoyed. I am notorious of NOT savoring moments like this...I am known for getting things done....promptly...ultra efficiently...I get it all done. And while I'm "getting it all done" I forget that these little people need me to stop and rest along with them. I'm blessed with the amazing opportunity to stay home and care for these sweet babes...I must learn to STOP...eat a muffin once-and-awhile and watch a little cartoons! It felt a bit awkward at first...because in the morning's I'm ready to get everyone dressed and hit the gym...not this week...I stopped to enjoy them. Lesson learned.
I've written about this many times before...and I suppose since I find myself tip-toeing the subject again it remains a battle...and I know it's not something just within myself...I think we all struggle to some degree with BEING MEAN TO OURSELVES. Why do we do it? Why are we so hard on ourselves? Why do we always require MORE and MORE?? Anyone will tell you...I can push myself to take on anything...and often it comes at the expense of far too much stress, and ultimately my health. Stress always causes me to feel just terrible...and, I've discovered, I'm the hardest on MYSELF. I am always pushing myself to do more...do better...faster...etc. etc. Enough is NEVER enough for me. And today I will boldly proclaim to you...those painful ideals that 'you are never enough'...every ounce of that is Satan. Yes, we should strive for great...Godly...and goodness...I believe we should...but when we start beating ourselves up, and our self-worth becomes nil....well...we are falling into a trap set by evil. I believe that. I've thought it many times before:
"I'm not fast enough"
"I'm not involved enough"
"I'm not enough of a cook"
"I'm not enough of a wife."
"I'm not exercising enough"
"I'm not cleaning enough"
"I'm not doing enough for other people"
NEWS FLASH....as long as you are walking in the light of God and doing your best...YOU ARE SOOOO ENOUGH!!! Find peace there. :-)
Lastly, I'm not sure where I got the idea that I had learned enough patience. God has set so many things in my path that have taught me patience...oh, and then, HE DECIDES TO SET MORE IN MY PATH. I really had it set in my mind that I was a pretty patient person...I can wait...sometimes I even like waiting...until recently...
Rob and I have had a little thing plopped in-front of us...and by little...well, I mean it's actually REALLY BIG...but, this thing has been teaching me more patience than I even know how to learn!? God is doing a work in me...and truthfully, I think he's even doing a work in my husband...who I have to say is the picture of patience. I guess we must look at it this way...God is doing something in us...and for us... :-) In HIS time.
Be patient with yourself...be kind to yourself...and know that you are doing plenty...you are doing enough as long as you are right there in the warm light of God and following the path that HE has laid before you.
Hopefully much more will come in the following days...Happy Spring!
It is no secret that I count calories...I can recall being very young counting calories...exercising...and wanting to never "get fat." And, to this day...oh, yes, I still struggle with that battle of the scales...while the struggle has improved eating anything off the charts still can leave me with a slight burden of guilt...and this week...I ATE A LEMON MUFFIN FOR BREAKFAST EACH DAY. I did...sugar coated...moist...and lemony sweet...along with my coffee I savored each bite...but, most importantly I want to tell you what I did alongside that. I sat myself on the sofa next to my baby girl and shared that delicious pastry...watching cartoons with her...we sat, and we enjoyed. I am notorious of NOT savoring moments like this...I am known for getting things done....promptly...ultra efficiently...I get it all done. And while I'm "getting it all done" I forget that these little people need me to stop and rest along with them. I'm blessed with the amazing opportunity to stay home and care for these sweet babes...I must learn to STOP...eat a muffin once-and-awhile and watch a little cartoons! It felt a bit awkward at first...because in the morning's I'm ready to get everyone dressed and hit the gym...not this week...I stopped to enjoy them. Lesson learned.
I've written about this many times before...and I suppose since I find myself tip-toeing the subject again it remains a battle...and I know it's not something just within myself...I think we all struggle to some degree with BEING MEAN TO OURSELVES. Why do we do it? Why are we so hard on ourselves? Why do we always require MORE and MORE?? Anyone will tell you...I can push myself to take on anything...and often it comes at the expense of far too much stress, and ultimately my health. Stress always causes me to feel just terrible...and, I've discovered, I'm the hardest on MYSELF. I am always pushing myself to do more...do better...faster...etc. etc. Enough is NEVER enough for me. And today I will boldly proclaim to you...those painful ideals that 'you are never enough'...every ounce of that is Satan. Yes, we should strive for great...Godly...and goodness...I believe we should...but when we start beating ourselves up, and our self-worth becomes nil....well...we are falling into a trap set by evil. I believe that. I've thought it many times before:
"I'm not fast enough"
"I'm not involved enough"
"I'm not enough of a cook"
"I'm not enough of a wife."
"I'm not exercising enough"
"I'm not cleaning enough"
"I'm not doing enough for other people"
NEWS FLASH....as long as you are walking in the light of God and doing your best...YOU ARE SOOOO ENOUGH!!! Find peace there. :-)
Lastly, I'm not sure where I got the idea that I had learned enough patience. God has set so many things in my path that have taught me patience...oh, and then, HE DECIDES TO SET MORE IN MY PATH. I really had it set in my mind that I was a pretty patient person...I can wait...sometimes I even like waiting...until recently...
Rob and I have had a little thing plopped in-front of us...and by little...well, I mean it's actually REALLY BIG...but, this thing has been teaching me more patience than I even know how to learn!? God is doing a work in me...and truthfully, I think he's even doing a work in my husband...who I have to say is the picture of patience. I guess we must look at it this way...God is doing something in us...and for us... :-) In HIS time.
Be patient with yourself...be kind to yourself...and know that you are doing plenty...you are doing enough as long as you are right there in the warm light of God and following the path that HE has laid before you.
Hopefully much more will come in the following days...Happy Spring!