I'm going to let you in on a secret. I have a selfish nature. I have a sinful nature. Ugh, I strongly dislike that, but, I am a human being. Along with being a human, I'm a Mom...a full-time...sometimes doesn't get to shower...has yoga pants on...doesn't always look fashionable...typically tired...wiping snotty noses Mom. I am. FULL TIME, ALL OF THE TIME.
My next secret for you...my house is a disaster right now. There isn't a bed in this house that is made, dishes are all over the counter...laundry is all over the place...and I just got home from Target...bags still sit in the mudroom waiting to be put away.
Next secret (oh yes, there's more) my to-do list is really long today. Floors need to be scrubbed, and dusting needs to be done atop of everything else.
So, this morning on my drive home...after I dropped off Aiden at school and Natalie and I made our trip to Target I decided I want a larger house. Ha...yep, a BIGGER HOUSE...MORE space. I do, and we need it. But, with me not working it just isn't a possibility. And, here begins the plight of every stay-at-home-mother. I want. I want this...I want that...I want...I want...I want... (I told you I had a sinful nature).
So, as I sat wanting I texted my Mother-in-law whom stayed at home with each of her three children. I asked her if she ever wanted something when she stayed home, and it just wasn't possible. Her answer was a relief. This strong christian woman with more character than I have in my whole body....SHE WANTED TOO!!! She understood my dilemma...I'm not the only one. But, in her response too, she reminded me of blessings.
Gosh...I have more blessings than I know what to do with so often. Our family is blessed beyond what we truly deserve and here I sit WANTING. Talk about a slight feeling of embarrassment.
And, take a glace up at my first paragraph....see, I was complaining at the work this house gives me. And here I sit...WANTING MORE!? I'm crazy! I can hardly keep up with the work this house gives me, and my sinful nature is asking for MORE!? Ha...that proves right now, at least in this season of life...this is the house we are meant to be in...right here is where we are supposed to be.
And, gosh...my children...they need their Mom. I am supposed to be caring for them daily. My little daughter needs her Mom to wipe her runny noses and teach her things. My husband who is more than I ever deserve works so hard to give this family the gift of a stay-at-home-mom...and I sat complaining this morning. I feel ashamed.
More than we need....we have it...more than so many....we have it....happy and loving....we have it....how dare I sit and complain.
So, my plight....it surfaced today, and I guarantee it will surface again...probably more than once...but, the plight that has me wanting also has me counting my bounty of blessings.
Have a wonderful day.
My next secret for you...my house is a disaster right now. There isn't a bed in this house that is made, dishes are all over the counter...laundry is all over the place...and I just got home from Target...bags still sit in the mudroom waiting to be put away.
Next secret (oh yes, there's more) my to-do list is really long today. Floors need to be scrubbed, and dusting needs to be done atop of everything else.
So, this morning on my drive home...after I dropped off Aiden at school and Natalie and I made our trip to Target I decided I want a larger house. Ha...yep, a BIGGER HOUSE...MORE space. I do, and we need it. But, with me not working it just isn't a possibility. And, here begins the plight of every stay-at-home-mother. I want. I want this...I want that...I want...I want...I want... (I told you I had a sinful nature).
So, as I sat wanting I texted my Mother-in-law whom stayed at home with each of her three children. I asked her if she ever wanted something when she stayed home, and it just wasn't possible. Her answer was a relief. This strong christian woman with more character than I have in my whole body....SHE WANTED TOO!!! She understood my dilemma...I'm not the only one. But, in her response too, she reminded me of blessings.
Gosh...I have more blessings than I know what to do with so often. Our family is blessed beyond what we truly deserve and here I sit WANTING. Talk about a slight feeling of embarrassment.
And, take a glace up at my first paragraph....see, I was complaining at the work this house gives me. And here I sit...WANTING MORE!? I'm crazy! I can hardly keep up with the work this house gives me, and my sinful nature is asking for MORE!? Ha...that proves right now, at least in this season of life...this is the house we are meant to be in...right here is where we are supposed to be.
And, gosh...my children...they need their Mom. I am supposed to be caring for them daily. My little daughter needs her Mom to wipe her runny noses and teach her things. My husband who is more than I ever deserve works so hard to give this family the gift of a stay-at-home-mom...and I sat complaining this morning. I feel ashamed.
More than we need....we have it...more than so many....we have it....happy and loving....we have it....how dare I sit and complain.
So, my plight....it surfaced today, and I guarantee it will surface again...probably more than once...but, the plight that has me wanting also has me counting my bounty of blessings.
Have a wonderful day.