Heard from my dental office today:
"Let's see Mrs. Mooney, we can actually get you in this Thursday for your dental work..."(her)
LOL...NO! I have plans...you'll have to wait until next week. (me)
After 2 weeks with zero exercise, and a very teething, runny nose, cough, and slight fever little baby...and being held up at home...yesterday was my limit. I had absolutely had it. To top it all off....Miss Natalie has some very severe attachment issues. These two weeks with nothing but Mom all day, everyday has been not so great for her major attachment. I sent Rob a message at one point yesterday telling him I NEEDED him to take a day off to be in charge and let me just go for an entire day to do as I please.
It didn't take much convincing on his part, he was all over the idea...in fact, he suggested I go to a spa or do something to treat myself! His exact words were "this Thursday...you aren't a Mom." Goodness...Thursday cannot come soon enough.
Parenting is hard. I wish someone had really told me how hard it truly is, and the amount of worry it comes with.
-are they warm
-are they full
-does he know all he needs to for school
-are they developing ok
-am I spending enough time with them
-am I spending too much time with them
-did I pack enough food in his lunch
-did they sleep enough
-are they coughing......
-am I teaching them enough
-am I a good role model
It's enough to make my head spin on some days. Then, God kinda washes over me and tells me that where I might not be able to carry them...He will....and I find so much safety right there. I pray that to God daily "God...when I mess up, or when I cannot be around them or with them...carry them for me." Magical thing, He does...every single time. God has never failed me.
Now, let's get back to my "mommy meltdown" Thursday is my day! I only have one appointment I MUST attend to, outside of that my possibilities are endless. It's crazy what this Mommy-hood does to us...I'm more excited for one single day than I am anything else. Ha...truth is, probably after an hour I'll be ready to come home.
Thank you God for covering my "blank" spots,for a husband who "get's it", and for children that really do need me as their Mom, but also need to be to take care of myself.
"Let's see Mrs. Mooney, we can actually get you in this Thursday for your dental work..."(her)
LOL...NO! I have plans...you'll have to wait until next week. (me)
After 2 weeks with zero exercise, and a very teething, runny nose, cough, and slight fever little baby...and being held up at home...yesterday was my limit. I had absolutely had it. To top it all off....Miss Natalie has some very severe attachment issues. These two weeks with nothing but Mom all day, everyday has been not so great for her major attachment. I sent Rob a message at one point yesterday telling him I NEEDED him to take a day off to be in charge and let me just go for an entire day to do as I please.
It didn't take much convincing on his part, he was all over the idea...in fact, he suggested I go to a spa or do something to treat myself! His exact words were "this Thursday...you aren't a Mom." Goodness...Thursday cannot come soon enough.
Parenting is hard. I wish someone had really told me how hard it truly is, and the amount of worry it comes with.
-are they warm
-are they full
-does he know all he needs to for school
-are they developing ok
-am I spending enough time with them
-am I spending too much time with them
-did I pack enough food in his lunch
-did they sleep enough
-are they coughing......
-am I teaching them enough
-am I a good role model
It's enough to make my head spin on some days. Then, God kinda washes over me and tells me that where I might not be able to carry them...He will....and I find so much safety right there. I pray that to God daily "God...when I mess up, or when I cannot be around them or with them...carry them for me." Magical thing, He does...every single time. God has never failed me.
Now, let's get back to my "mommy meltdown" Thursday is my day! I only have one appointment I MUST attend to, outside of that my possibilities are endless. It's crazy what this Mommy-hood does to us...I'm more excited for one single day than I am anything else. Ha...truth is, probably after an hour I'll be ready to come home.
Thank you God for covering my "blank" spots,for a husband who "get's it", and for children that really do need me as their Mom, but also need to be to take care of myself.