I feel as though I have said my fair share of "goodbyes," in this life, and I know that I have more to come as I get older. Through death, and loss of relationships I would venture to say I've said goodbye more than most my age. Goodbye has taught me a lot about the value of people, and how delicate life is. However, goodbye has also kept me from more hello's than I wish to mention.
I guess when you suffer a loss it makes getting close in any capacity very difficult for some. I look back, and wonder what relationships I missed out on in the past due to my fear of goodbye....
We were never promised permanent friendships, permanent siblings, permanent parents, or friends. We were promised an eternity, and in my mind eternity is spent with those people we love and have lost, in Heaven. So, the fear of getting too close to anyone here on this Earth is really no excuse not to get close to as many people as we can, and to love as many as we can...because someday goodbye will no longer be in our vocabulary, we will never again suffer that sinking feelings of loss that is all to familiar to so many.
This month alone I am far too aware of so many parents saying goodbye to their children. It is breaking my heart. A parent should never have to say goodbye to their baby, no matter what age. Our children should be the ones to bury us--once we are very old....but what should be just is not what is. One day we will understand, but, that one day it will not even matter. What will, will be our life in eternity-still loving those we have lost. I guess the only peace I could offer anyone is that "goodbye" in this life is really "I will see you in the next life...". It is not permanent.
I'm learning that my goodbyes, the loss should never keep me from loving more...yet, it should teach me to love deeper...love with a purpose, and love without condition because we never know when we must utter the painful words of "I will see you soon...".
I guess when you suffer a loss it makes getting close in any capacity very difficult for some. I look back, and wonder what relationships I missed out on in the past due to my fear of goodbye....
We were never promised permanent friendships, permanent siblings, permanent parents, or friends. We were promised an eternity, and in my mind eternity is spent with those people we love and have lost, in Heaven. So, the fear of getting too close to anyone here on this Earth is really no excuse not to get close to as many people as we can, and to love as many as we can...because someday goodbye will no longer be in our vocabulary, we will never again suffer that sinking feelings of loss that is all to familiar to so many.
This month alone I am far too aware of so many parents saying goodbye to their children. It is breaking my heart. A parent should never have to say goodbye to their baby, no matter what age. Our children should be the ones to bury us--once we are very old....but what should be just is not what is. One day we will understand, but, that one day it will not even matter. What will, will be our life in eternity-still loving those we have lost. I guess the only peace I could offer anyone is that "goodbye" in this life is really "I will see you in the next life...". It is not permanent.
I'm learning that my goodbyes, the loss should never keep me from loving more...yet, it should teach me to love deeper...love with a purpose, and love without condition because we never know when we must utter the painful words of "I will see you soon...".