I've heard it said oh, a billion times..."we must die to self to truly be God's instrument.."(or some version of that..) We've all heard it, but, do we live it? Nope. I sure try, but, I fail miserably. To wake up each day toss out my hands, and say.."bring it on!" That's a little scary to me...to let someone else take the reins....for this OCD girl that makes me nervous. But, I'm getting better....think of how much MORE life we could live, and experience if we really tuned into God and let him take over 100%. I really feel like we'd be loving much much more.
C.S. Lewis said it like this..
"The real son of God is at your side. He is beginning to turn you into the same kind of thing as himself. He is beginning, so to speak, to "inject" his kind of life and thought...into you; beginning to turn the tin soldier into a live man. The part of you that does not like it is the part that is still tin."
Mere Christianity
Yep, there is still some tin man left in me. However, I'm better than I was. I feel like we often become stiff in our religion...we go to church, we teach the classes, volunteer, enroll our kids in "stuff", but outside of that what do we do??
Rob and I made a commitment that this next November (Thanksgiving) we are going to fast...our children will fast...and until we've gone to a kitchen and served those far less fortunate we wont eat. We all need to be a bit uncomfortable while we serve others who live in a state of uncomfortable all of the time. It's little things like that, that I need to be a part of. I really really never want to become stale in my service. I want God to take me and use me however he feels the need, and I cannot be of any use just living the mundane routine over and over.
Goodbye self...hello God...