Yesterday was a really hard day. I couldn't tell you the exact reason why, but, I do know there are a million little things that resulted in yesterday just being flat out hard. Thoughts and images of my Mom wouldn't leave me, I did the breathing, the meditation, the attempt to replace my sad thoughts with the good...nothing was working, so I just prayed, really hard I prayed and God answered my prayer at about 3:15pm. Natalie and I resumed our day yesterday once Rob and Aiden left for work and school...everything got done that needed to, but I was left feeling so alone and just blah. I sat and cried at each of Natalie's naps, uncontrollable crying...and maybe that's what my spirit just needed to cry really hard.
But, once I picked up Aiden from school things were brighter, they just were. I'm not sure if it was being there among all of the other little kids and their innocence, but, something washed over me and just made it all "alright." Mr. Aiden and Nat went with me to get a flu shot, and we found ourselves at the Discovery Center where we laughed, learned, played, and talked. It was exactly what I needed. Time with my two innocent little baby dolls (I know Aiden is 6, but, he will always be MY baby doll).
I went out yesterday evening for coffee, and to shop a bit. It felt good...it felt good to just be alone for an hour or two and clear my thoughts, kinda hit the "reset" button. (yes, Mom's have reset buttons). Once I got home my sweet husband met me outside and I was refreshed. God gave me this family, He knew I needed this family, and I am so grateful for each of them. In their own little ways they are the perfect fit for us, and God just matched us up perfectly.
God gave me this family for the up's and downs.....
But, once I picked up Aiden from school things were brighter, they just were. I'm not sure if it was being there among all of the other little kids and their innocence, but, something washed over me and just made it all "alright." Mr. Aiden and Nat went with me to get a flu shot, and we found ourselves at the Discovery Center where we laughed, learned, played, and talked. It was exactly what I needed. Time with my two innocent little baby dolls (I know Aiden is 6, but, he will always be MY baby doll).
I went out yesterday evening for coffee, and to shop a bit. It felt good...it felt good to just be alone for an hour or two and clear my thoughts, kinda hit the "reset" button. (yes, Mom's have reset buttons). Once I got home my sweet husband met me outside and I was refreshed. God gave me this family, He knew I needed this family, and I am so grateful for each of them. In their own little ways they are the perfect fit for us, and God just matched us up perfectly.
God gave me this family for the up's and downs.....